Hello Friday

Here I am in the midst of a messy house knowing very well I should occupy my time cleaning and organizing instead of blogging.  But if I waited until everything was tidy you'd never hear from me on here.  So, here I am.  Stopping my day to write on here is therapeutic anyway.  

I'm glad to see the week is at its end.  This has been a hard week, which involved an unexpected death, students who were trying my patience at work, and a lack of energy to get anything done at home.  I'm really struggling emotionally but I keep pressing on the best I can because there are tiny humans who are in need of me.  I'm grateful for the raise I got at work and then I look at my paystub and see how much has been taken out for taxes and retirement.  Is it necessary?  My job has it's benefits, like being able to financially help my husband out and that is so needed.  But then I miss being at home all the time, constantly present for when my kids, completely focused on housework, etc.  I'm one of those old souls who feels a wife was designed to be at home doing all the homemaking but in today's economy you're pretty lucky if you can make that work.  In the days when I was a stay-at-home mom with the two little ones we made major sacrifices.  It was well worth it and by the grace of God we got through.  Now dealing with the stresses of an outside job and then feeling too exhausted for anything else when I get home doesn't feel too worth it to me but I gotta do what I gotta do.  Unfortunately.  

Our dog continues to constantly urinate all over the house.  We already tried an antibiotic for a possible UTI but that didn't work.  Now the vet gave us a new prescription.  Not working.  The next move is an ultrasound to check for that big ugly C word.  My poor furbaby.  I love him dearly.  He came to us unexpectedly almost five years ago and now we might lose him sooner than later.  

My son has officially started back up with cyber.  This time it's directly through the school district and I like it better that way because he can still play high school sports, participate in other school activities and graduate with his class.  He's interested in getting into engineering post graduation so we are talking about him taking classes with their tech program.  He can still do his core classes online and then go in person for the tech classes.  The woman who runs the cyber program has a classroom at the high school so cyber students can go in there to do their work if they have any in person electives or tech classes.  There are many options aside from doing all the work at home but for now he's at home.  Honestly, with how schools are these days and all the stories I hear it's great to have him home.  I also love that he can work at his own pace and if he gets ahead he can graduate junior year.  I don't agree that homeschool kids are sheltered and not socialized.  He's an independent worker and can handle this.  He still goes to the school twice a week for baseball workouts.  We are looking forward to the upcoming season.  He's also getting ready to start his Eagle Scout project.  Big things are happening for that boy.

My daughter, is sticking with in person school.  She's better that way.  It works for her.  I don't know if the future will change that but for now she's where she needs to be.  Next month is a middle school dance she's excited for.  She's also starting to learn her dances for the June show in dance.  Her competitions are quickly approaching.  The cost of her dance is another reason I must keep working and that's worth it to me.  Next month will also be a chorus and band concert.  Yes, this girl is a busy bee.  

Well, I should end this here.  I hope your weekend is fun, relaxing, cozy, and all the good things.