A Little Up, A Little Down

 Have you had a chance to see Jupiter and Venus over the last few weeks?  As a child astronomy was something I found fascinating.   

The weather in my part of the world has been up and down.  One day it's cold and the next day it's warm enough to put on a pair of shorts.  Then the next day it's cold with some snow flakes.  

We even took the bird outside for some fresh air.  In his cage, of course.   That bird loves my daughter.   He watches her, sings to her and squeals very loudly when she cries.  

Mother Nature has been very indecisive lately.  She's not the only one.  I've been finding myself in a state of confusion when it comes to just about anything.   My mood has definitely been up and down.  I'm crying easily and often.  I'm irritable more than usual.  I'm falling into constant frustration.   I've been wondering if perimenopause is coming into play.  My monthly cycle has been wonky lately, too.  I'm also frustrated lately because the kids aren't listening and I feel like a broken record.  My husband has become too preoccupied in his own things and has become distant in trying to understand why I'm so miserable.   Maybe I'm experiencing a mid-life crisis that's come just 6 years in advanced?  Or maybe I've been bombarded with so many decisions and not knowing what direction to go.  

It's not all bad.  My kids generally are good.  I'm grateful for who they are. My job has its frustrations but it's a job I'm grateful for.  My marriage could use some strengthening but it could be so much worse and I'm thankful for the work my husband puts into it.  My house never seems clean enough but it keeps us warm on these cold days.  I might have to remind my kids to clean their rooms and take out the trash but they are still willing to hang out with their parents and don't run with the bad crowd.  Life is all about the ups and downs.  

Speaking about going down my son took advantage of his free ski lessons today.  The perks of working at a ski resort.  He had fun and did well.  I caught a little bit of it.  I'm proud of him for trying something new.  

You'll never see this unadventerous mama doing this.  But I respect those that love the thrill.