One Of Those Days

 We are inching closer to autumn as the days and nights are becoming much cooler and the leaves are beginning to change colors.  Fall is a season with beautiful scenic views, pumpkin spice craziness, my birthday, Halloween, Thanksgiving, my son's birthday, and it ends with the preparation of Christmas.  I love so many things about this season but I really dread the season that comes after.  I'll explain more of that once winter is officially here.  

  This morning started a little rough.  I woke up to the alarm at 5:40am.  I made my way across the hall to wake up my daughter for school.  Then I let the dog outside.  It was still dark out but I could see her running towards the back of the yard and I heard a screaming sound.  I went outside to find the dumb dog running around with a rabbit in her mouth, by then it was dead.  I chased her around trying to get her to drop it and come into the house with me.  I know it's natural for a dog, especially a husky, but it's very upsetting for me.  My husband's comment to my reaction had then upset me more.  I feel like I don't get much support in my feelings.  I love dogs and I was so excited to welcome a new one in my home but I just can't get connected with this girl.  I try but it's difficult.  I used to say I wanted a big dog because I've always had small ones but now I realize I'm a small dog girl all the way.  She's too much for me but at this point there's no going back.  Bringing her back to the SPCA will only leave the rest of this household with broken hearts.  I just wish my husband could be more sensitive to the feelings I express.  It's always something.  My marriage is being tested, my children are testing me a lot lately, this dog is driving me crazy, I can't seem to get this house clean, my mom's progression into Alzheimer's is increasingly getting worse.  It feels so suffocating at times.  

I'm just glad to have found a job that I enjoy and leaves me with time in between to get things done.  Today I vacuumed inside and under the couches, cleaned different areas of the house, started the unending loads of wash, vacuumed my car and the van, and mowed the front yard.  The back will get done another day.  Now I'm sitting here hoping to get some writing done.  This evening my son will be playing a rescheduled baseball game.  Dinner is in the crockpot, which is my favorite thing to do when it's going to be a busy evening.  So like any day, this one has its ups and downs.  

It's just been one of those days!  Maybe I should just leave this post with a cute little fall inspired meme.