Hello, friends!
The outside air is cool but the sun is shining and I'll take every ounce of vitamin D I can get. I've been out all morning driving the school van and then going to the grocery store for some needed items. Now I'm inside, doing some cleaning and taking a break from the outside world until it's time to leave again. I'll be heading out at 1pm for the afternoon shift and then off to the high school to watch my daughter's swim meet. All I can think about is being back home to shower and slip into pajamas and relax with a book before bed.
It sounds like I'm lazy and I often feel that way but I can't help but enjoy being at home and I love relaxing after a day of chores. Mentally, I feel drained this time of year and it can be exhausting just dealing with that. I've been enjoying spending late evenings plopped on the couch switching between my diamond art and reading the current book. I set a goal on the Goodreads app to finish 50 books by the end of the year. That's doable, I believe.
Also, who wants to be out in the world in this day and age? It's impossible to turn on the news or scroll through social media without seeing videos and pictures of the streets filled with hate, anger and crime. There are protests being held just miles from my house. I'm confused by it all. We are living in a time when good is considered evil and evil is considered good, just as the Bible warned us would happen in the end times. I believe we are getting closer and I choose to be ready for it. There might not be much I can do to help what's going on in the world but I wonder if there is something, just something, I can do. I wonder if it could be justified to say for me it's better to just be at home and not interfere. Is it selfish or is it just the fact that I'm not called to do anything major. Edmund Burke once said, "All that is necessary for evil to succeed is for good men to do nothing." My husband saw the flaws that were happening within our school district and so he became a director on the school board. I realize maybe I'm not called to do anything as big but just driving teenagers to school could be meaningful enough. Conversing with them and trying to help them move towards the right path in life. I pray that if there's more for me it will be revealed to me. Until then, I will be at home cleaning, cooking, raising my kids and loving my husband.
And enjoying the simple moments like this.
Ok. First of all, you are called to one of the biggest things ever! Your vocation as a wife and mother is one of the most integral parts of creating a better world. St. Theresa of Calcutta said, "If you want to change the world, go home and love your family." What you and I do creates something that goes far beyond the walls of our home, my friend. Raising children to be kind, thoughtful, righteous people who go into that world outside is one of the most important contributions possible. And you are not lazy. That is what society wants us to believe, because it glamorizes busy, busy, going, doing, running around, comparing, buying, traveling, and everything else that distracts us from the one thing we should be doing: being. Just being present, relaxed, rested, calm, and happy. That begins with self love and care. For me that is pajamas and a good book on the couch. Or a nap. Or pizza takeout. I learned long ago that taking care of myself is imperative for me to be able to take care of everyone else. You, sweet friend, are doing an amazing job. Don't sell yourself short. Hugs! And love from one cozy book lover to another!
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