I made a pot of coffee and took a cup outside to my back porch. I sat there and enjoyed the sounds of nature, with my cup of hot and delicious brew, and a conversation with Jesus. There were the chattering of birds around me and a squirrel who amusingly found his way up a pole and into the neighbor's bird feeder. Admittedly, the time I take to converse with my Lord isn't as often as it should be. Lately, I've been having a hard time with a lot of things and this was an opportunity to give it all to Him. I've been struggling with a lot of emotions and a lot of thoughts that have been affecting my day to day life. It's been affecting my mood and how I've been handling so many things from my marriage, to my parenting, and to how I see life in general. It all went to God. The things I've faced in my past that seems to want to continuously creep up on me, the things currently going on, the unknowns of my future ... all went to my loving God. He took it all and I could instantly feel the freedom of all those burdens I was bearing. I felt a sense of peace and ready to start the day. I thought it would be best to grab my Bible that has been sitting on my nightstand but I didn't want the risk of waking up my husband. I was enjoying the moment too much. It was at least an hour of talking to the One who had the power of changing me and comforting me. That was so needed and something I'll have to try to put into every morning.
My son woke up and we snuggled on the couch as he read his book. Then my husband and daughter woke up. My daughter asked if I could read with her. Every day they are to read for the library's summer reading and so far they've been doing amazing with it. Throughout everything, even the bickering between my kids, I was able to handle it so much better.
I even took this positive energy and used it on getting some major cleaning done. I really hate to clean on this day of Sabbath but since every other day in the week is filled with so many events it's hard to focus on what needs done inside the house. So much clutter. So much dust and dirt always finds it's way all around, even moments after I've cleaned. My goal for 2019 was to rid the house of as much as possible and that's been a slow process. Our development held a yard sale over the weekend and my husband took charge of it and although we got rid of a lot there's still so much more laying around. My son, heading into the preteen years, was eager to get rid of a ton of toys where my daughter, almost eight, was having a hard time saying goodbye to anything she owned. I realized this is a process I can't rush with this sensitive and sentimental girl. Her willingness to let go will come with time. I'm just hoping that the less clutter will result in more peace of mind and less anxiety for me.
Today, is a good day!
"Cast all your cares on HIM because HE cares for you." -- 1 Peter 5:7
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