Making A Difference, Somehow

 Greetings friends!  

It's been quite cold here in Pennsylvania and some parts have already seen snow.  We are also back to Standard Time which means shorter days.  It's quite frustrating when it's pitch black outside and my mind tells me it's time for to get ready for bed but it's only 5pm.  And here in Pennsylvania I'm quite disappointed in the results of the election.   You know, I try really hard to keep the peace and keep myself from speaking anything controversial.   I want to provide a place of encouragement and escape from all of this turmoil but then I realize being silent doesn't help anything.   We are a world that is so broken.  Evil is now considered good and good is evil.  If you don't agree with someone you are labeled some type of name.  We aren't allowed to have our own views especially if they are Conservative ones.  Actress Candace Cameron Bure is getting backlash after saying she wants to keep traditional family values in her new television network.  She's being attacked by Jojo Siwa, who came out of the closet a few years ago.  I mean, if you aren't happy with it change the channel.  No one is being forced to watch it.  I just don't understand it.  

Then noticing the things going on in our school district and across the country in other districts.  Schools are no longer just an educational institute where reading, writing and math is taught.  There are certain things being pushed on these students.  I'm so happy our son keeps an open dialogue with us, telling us the things that go on at the high school.  My husband is strongly considering running for school board and has been closely talking to one of the current members.  He refuses to stay silent anymore.  I know it's good for him to get involved, not just for our own kids but for all kids in the district.  I'm just, however, frustrated with sending my kids to public school.  My dream would be to just homeschool them.  So many families are doing that now and it's working for them.  My husband won't budge on the idea because these kids need the socialization.  They do get it elsewhere with dance, scouts and baseball.  There's other ways they can get it.  And school just isn't what it was when we attended, not even close.  

Lately, I've been thinking of packing my family and moving somewhere off the grid.  Our own land, with our own livestock, working from home and teaching my kids from home.  Does that sound wonderful?  Maybe not practical but with how everything is lately it sounds so great.  I'm just stuck on figuring out what I could do from home and how it would all work.  Oh, to dream!

It hasn't all been bad, though.  My mood has been pretty upbeat lately, in fact.  I've been reminding myself that no matter what happens in this world that God is in control.  He has it all figured out.  Regardless of who we have as governor or president He is the King of Kings.  I've had so many prayers lately that I feel are going unanswered but I know it will all be in His time.  Before I step inside the firehall where we vote I say, "Your Will not mine, Lord."  Nothing has been harder than watching as my son continues to suffer with chronic migraines and it feels those prayers have been ignored but I know God is suffering right along with him.  He cares and He's handling it, even if we might not see His process.  

Well, those are my thoughts!  I've been feeling something nudge at me to no longer stay silent.  I want to help somehow but then wonder how a nobody from south central Pennsylvania could really make a difference.  God placed me on this earth for a purpose and I fear I'm wasting the days away not fulfilling His plan for me.  I'm lost in my own thoughts.