Being the Change

 "Be the change you want to see in this world" -- Gandhi

Mahatma Gandhi practiced the religion of Hinduism, and although I am a devout Christian I still love this quote.  It tells us that if we want to see change we need to go out into the world and do our part.  As much as I like living in my own little bubble my husband has been feeling a push to run for our local school board.  To say I was excited for his endeavor would be false.  I was hesitant and scared.  I did not want to be a part of any public scrutiny.  Working in the district I know that the administration and many teachers would be opposed to his ideas; therefore, it would not sit well with their judgement on me.  I know I shouldn't care what others think and I generally don't but I have been striving to live a peaceful, reserved life.  My husband definitely lit a torch and disrupted my comfort zone.  But change needs to happen.  Our district is failing.  Actually, the public schools all over the country are failing.  Many parents and tax payers have had enough.  Even some teachers are frustrated, in secret.  My husband has felt a call and I can't stand in his way of that.  I hadn't been as supportive as he would have liked me to be but that was because of my fears.  I feel ashamed of not being the wife he needs me to be but I am proud.  I proudly walked into the polling place yesterday and did my part.  He stayed from morning until night handing out pamphlets and talking to voters.  He did well and we're ready to vote again in November.  Let's go change the world ... or at least the school board.  

I've also been feeling a push with my writing but finding the time has been so difficult.  With two active kids I'm being pulled in different directions and the housework gets neglected, so how am I going to find time to sit and write?  I actually took the day off of work today to get housework done and now I'm writing for a bit.  It feels good to have the morning and afternoon hours to devote to what needs done at home.  I really miss that time but we do need my paycheck.  I've spent five years in the cafeteria but I've been feeling a pull to leave.  It's time.  I'm just not sure where I'll go next.  I was hoping to stick it out until, at least, my daughter starts high school.  Then I could venture back into full-time.  Even though a bigger paycheck would help us tremendously, I still feel the need to spend most of my time at home.  I have one idea of what I can do in the fall but I'm not sure if it will work out and I'd even love to get something in the summer to make a few extra bucks.  I feel stuck and unsure right now.  I've been spending a lot of time in prayer and I can feel an answer is going to come.  

The other day I had an idea come to me on something to write. I opened Word and began to write, then I did research and also opened up the Bible.  It was amazing that the exact verses I needed was where I opened to.  I could feel the presence of the Lord at my fingertips as I typed.  The only thing I typed up was a bunch of notes and verses but this is what is going to lead me on something I'll be writing.  This is different from my fictional book I've been writing.  The process on that book started during the Covid shut down and I've been going back and forth, back and forth.  It shouldn't be taking this long but here we are.  Life happens.  But I'm now feeling confidently ready that the time is NOW.  After prayer and reflecting I am feeling the push.  To spend at least one hour a day on writing and hopefully more during the slower summer months.  With that I've decided to step away from all social media (I'm only one Facebook and Instagram) to focus that extra time on research and writing.  I'm feeling led to help others understand that age old question, "If God is so good why does He allow bad things to happen?"  I'm no Biblical expert, I'm not a pastor, I have never attended a seminary class, but somehow God has called me to write on this.  God can use anybody.  Here we go ...!