Happy Monday morning! The last one of 2024. When I think about the year 2025 that's upon us I just can't seem to fathom how we got to this year already. I was born in 1978, graduated from high school in 1997, graduated from a two year business school in 2000, married in 2002, had my first child in 2007 and second in 2011. All of those milestones feel like it happened yesterday. 2025 seems like such a big number, one that I did not think I'd ever see. As I look back on my life I can recall so many great memories but then there are plenty that I wish I did not have. I often think of moments in time when I said something or did something I wish I hadn't, or even did not say or did not do something I wish I had. Are you like that, too? It's terrible but these regrets have been filling my mind and ruining my mood for quite some time. I have to let it go, I know that. I can't hold on to things that no longer exist or serve any purpose. I have to move forward knowing that I had moments of not being a good daughter, friend, wife or mother. I have to understand that those are the things that help cultivate who I really need to be. For those I have ever hurt, I'm sorry. For the times I allowed my emotions to get the best of me, I'm sorry. In those moments I allowed my anger to take over, I'm very sorry. I realize that so much of who I am on the inside stems from the life I had growing up and those are the things I never talk about with anyone, especially not on here in the internet world. Maybe someday I'll elaborate but for now, I have to focus on healing. I also have to make sure my children never, ever feel the trauma as I have. What I love about this generation is the willingness we have to break generational curses.
My word for 2024 was SURRENDER. In every circumstance I faced, good or bad, I wanted to surrender it to God. For the most part, I succeeded but some things were harder to surrender than others. Whenever faced with a decision or a challenge I took a moment to pray and ask God for guidance. And then I'd wonder if I was actually following His lead and finding myself questioning those choices. So, it's become clear what my word for 2025 needs to be.
CONTENTMENT.
After surrendering to God I need to be content with His answer. I need to let go of what I think should be and be content with what is.
I can't wait to further elaborate this plan of contentment with you but as my daughter has just woke up (hurray for the ability to sleep in during winter break) my attention is needed now.
May God bless you in the New Year!
Hello, my friend. Yes, thinking it will be 2025 is hurting my brain! I remember thinking how weird it was to start writing the year with a 20 instead of 19! That was twenty five years ago??? In any case, I pray for a happy, healthy, blessed new year for you and your family. I think your word is perfect. Hugs from cloudy and too warm Maryland!
ReplyDeleteAh, as I was reading your thoughts and feelings, I was thinking that God had the answers for you. I was so glad to see that you've come to that conclusion yourself. He's the only way I can live day to day. At 59, gasp, I've had plenty of times to build up regrets. His grace makes it all better. Thanks to the blood of Jesus.
ReplyDeleteHappy new year,
Laura of Harvest Lane Cottage